girl, ruined

I once knew you
as a girl who let her innocence run wild,
let her ignorance fuel her passions.
I once knew you as a girl who knew me.
But I am now drowning in a tub of tears.
I've never needed to defend my love for her to you.
To you, of all people. Our best friend.
I have love in my heart for the girl I once knew.
But now all I have is hate in my head.

I sit here in this snow-laced city
with lost love in my heart, with hate in my head,
and all I do is cling to what I knew.
If honesty was ever in our relationship,
I am standing here telling you,
we're gone.
There is a revolution calling us and we are going to lead it.
The fuse that you would like to extinguish,
is within us. And you helped create it.
But this, I did not write for you.
I wrote this for the girl I once knew.

I lay here hurting.
And as my tears dissolve like milk in my tea,
I can only think of you as the girl you are now.
And all I can do is tattoo your name all over my hands.
All I can do is remind myself that the girl you are now is the girl you've always been.
For the girl I cling for that I once knew,
that girl is me.