I have such a heavy chest.
It's the feeling you get when
you are angry.
It's the feeling that comes after
an empty pack of cigarettes.
It's the feeling you get when
all you want is to sleep forever.

I can't swallow. It's hard to figure out
what thoughts are yours when you're
telling yourself you don't think that way.

It's hard not to scream.
It's hard to not want to die.